This year in my goal to better understand and become more connected to my faith, I have completed a couple of cycles of the Marian Consecration. It is a way of completely devoting one's life to the Virgin Mary and offering oneself to Jesus through Mary.
As I understand the idea for committing to Mary as a way to reach Jesus was first started in the 1600's by French Priest St. Louis de Montfort. More recently it was reestablished by St. Maximilian Kolbe (who should be the patron Saint of Beard-Growing) in the 1920's and 1930's. In either case there is a series of 33 days of daily reflection before praying to commit to Mary.
In the case of St. Kolbe's consecration the daily prayers always included "...become a Saint. A great Saint."
This was always uncomfortable to me to say. I'm not a Saint. I'm definitely not a great Saint. I have faults. I have made mistakes. I have spent parts of my life distanced from Jesus. I can't be a Saint.
Or can I?
I think the first step to becoming a Saint is the realization that even the Saints we admire probably had faults. St. Paul was a Roman who persecuted Jews and early Christians. Before his conversion St. Augustine pursued a life paganism and had a child out of wedlock. St. Pelagia and St. Mary of Egypt were well known seductresses.
More recently, in the 1800's, Bl. Bartolo Longo described himself as an atheist and "Satanic Priest." During his beatification St. Pope John Paul called Fr. Longo the "Apostle of the Rosary." That's quite a turn around.
It seems like almost every Saint has a story of being distanced from God and a conversion that led them to return to their faith.
So maybe I can be a Saint. Maybe we all can.
Being a Saint is not about being flawless. Becoming a Saint is about working on flaws and using them to become perfect.
I want to end on this thought from one of those flawed individuals who became a Saint and a was named a Doctor of the Church, St. Augustine:
"There is no Saint without a past, no sinner without a future."
Let us realize our flaws and figure out how to use them to become Saints, great Saints.